I just came to a realization about my life so far. 

Fate is an elegant, cold-hearted whore.

Yep, that about sums it up.

Current Location: Work
Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: None

No girlfriends for a long time for me. Too much heartbreak.

Dear God,



































Please help me.

My mouth doesn't seem to properly express how much I truly do love you. My lips are moving, my actions are innocent and pure, yet the point still doesn't seem to get across. 
So this is my ode to you:

Ode to Her

I love you like the sun in the sky
Or maybe how a bird is destined to fly
Even more than a mother loves her child
Or all the animals running in the wild

A pedal to a rose
And everyone knows
It's more that just love
Soaring around like a white turtle dove

Tears for joy and tears for pain
It's like standing out in the hot summer rain
It's more than the sound of your sweet gentle name
More than a predetor loves its game

Words can't sum up the way that I feel
But I'll definetly say
These feelings are real
And as Sent from above
Im here to give you my undying love

So in closing my dear
I pray I've made it rather clear
You mean everything to me
My sweet heart can't you see
I can't get enough of your endless touch
Oh my sweet baby, I love you so much! 

Current Location: Work
Current Mood: artistic
Current Music: Captain Planet

I love my girlfriend. She is just amazing.



Be jealous. Be very jealous.



The bar has been raised... for shizzle.

Ye!

Current Location: Hotel with the guys...In Pasadena, missing my girl.
Current Mood: loved
Current Music: Led Zeppelin

Current Mood: annoyed

Why do I feel so conflicted lately? My mind keeps racing back and forth on decisions that I would typically be able to make quite easily. This boggles me. I have always been able "Just Do It" (Sorry, I bought a pair of Nike's today).... So, I have always been able to just do it, or not do it for that matter. Yet lately I am teetering and tottering and I don't like it. Sometimes, I wish I had a time machine. The decisions I make today will directly impact my future. So, how do I make these decisions? Do I base my decisions on faith? Logic? Emotion? How can I find an equal balance these things? Or am I supposed to find a balance? Shouldn't my faith override all other things? 

I feel so lost. 

Current Location: Work
Current Mood: blank

Current Mood: cheerful